Every once in a while, like everyone else I am sure, I get down and think my life sucks, or much more common lately, I kind of stink at this thing called life.
Things have just been piling up recently on top of each other and I find myself doing counseling for depression, anxiety, and basically learning to manage my emotional health for the fourth or fifth time in the last three years. Sometimes I wonder if it will every get easier or if I will ever get this right? At times like these, it can feel like I am so far away from God or from who I really want to be and I get discouraged.
Recently, however, my husband showed me something he saw on Facebook that has given me a pause of sorts: A friend of ours who was in our single’s ward when we were dating is going through cancer yet again for the fourth time (I believe) and he is only in 23?
Yikes.
And I thought my life was hard.
As he has been going through these experiences however, he has kept up a blog (Life Without a Fibula) about his thoughts and experiences, along with a summary of his hardships and blessings. The thing that astounds me the most is his continual faith in God, and that no matter what happens, everything will work out.
“Faith and doubt cannot co-exist in the same mind at the same time, for one will dispel the other.” – Thomas S Monson.
Another amazing quality that is cool to see in Erik’s blog is his ability to find the blessings he has now. Reading about his blessings or the things he is grateful for has been a humble piece of pie for me.
I have a place that I call home.
I have a wonderful worthy man to call my husband, who is my biggest fan and supporter, and makes me laugh every day.
I am expecting my first child, and I really don’t have much to complain about with the pregnancy.
I have a job that I enjoy.
My husband and I are currently debt-free.
I have many friends and family who care about me.
Many of these friends and families have been little Angel’s from Heaven without truly knowing it.
I have had many many tender mercies from my Father in Heaven as little reminders that he is aware of me and my life.
I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ which makes me super happy.
When you look at that, what can I complain about?
As Erik quoted Buddha in one of his posts: “It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles…” And truly, that’s all that matter’s in this life: learning to conquer yourself, your weaknesses, and enjoy life and it’s many surprises and adventures.
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